Valentines....

I hate Valentines Day.

I always have. From when i was in elementary school and we had to make "valentine mailboxes" and give valetines to everybody in the class to middle school when everybody sent those stinkin carnations to all your friends and i never got any and now i hate valentines because of the very fact i dont have a valentine and its just dumb.

Love. it comes in three different forms. Philia, Eros and Agape. Philia is that of a brotherly love, a friendship. Philedelphia if you will. Eros is that of a passionate, romanitc love-- the way a man loves his wife. Agape, the unconditional never changing love. The Philia love i have in surplus. I have quite possibly the best friends in the world, a precious (though all-bit dissfunctional) family, and the most incredible mentors. But i lack the eros love. that romantic love. I dont have a boyfriend. and i havent had one, But you know what, its ok. Cause there is something that i do have--Agape Love.

Though i dont have that earthly love that i so desire, i have alove more precious and incredible than any other. I have a redeeming love, a saving grace. I have a Heavenly Father who loves me for who i am. He loves me even admist my sin. Even when i screw up over and over and over again, my God still loves me. And that will never chnge. HIs love is constant and perfect and completely undeserved. But he loves me.

So im missing that Eros love.... one day it will come. and until then i will cherish those that love me Philia and and the One who loves me Agape. He sent me a valentine... Jesus Christ, his son. to die for me and my sins. For that i love him and live for him alone.

But i still hate valentines.... just maybe not as much... ;-]